This painting is a work in progress and the first in my new series called
It's Hard To Keep Up This Facade

The Cosplayer

24x36in
Acrylic on Canvas


~12/21/2025~

I've been painting and drawing for over 15 years, sometimes more frequently and sometimes less. This time last year I produced what I would call 30 on the level paintings ranging from acrylic , watercolor and gouache. I dabbled a bit in Ink and charcoal as well. It felt good just trying to stretch my creative wings and really explore color in ways I wasn't comfortable with before .

Then when fall arrived and the 2024- 2025 school year began I became ill, loss of balance and vertigo like symptoms coupled with severe bronchitis left me unable to create for months- about 3 months of just relearning balance, focusing my eyes and just feeling like myself again.
Finally , feeling better I began to restart my creative fire, a cold and dormant pilot light -but to my dismay something had changed inside me.

Why do I create? What purpose does it serve ? I began to question what I've been doing- somehow I felt sapped of the vigor and drive i had only months before. I've heard from some of my great artist friends that this is the seed of imposter syndrome - it's been a while now since I've made something.

These last few weeks I've managed to start that pilot up its faint and so very blue but, it's there again. I Feel ready to create once more.

And so now the struggle is deciding where to plot course for , I'm slowly working on something a bit bigger now a series of paintings that tentatively is titled -
It's Hard To Keep Up This Facade

A series about people balancing what they love and what the world demands.